My second day of freedom

Had a good night sleep yesterday but it wasn't enough AT ALL!!! Forced to get up at 6 something again cause my instructor came to pick me up at 7.15. And yes! Off we go to LSA for the Kurikulum Pendidikan Pemandu (KPP). Sat in there for 5 HOURS!!! Of course there's a 1/2 hour break in the middle. It was boring, time-consuming, making me sleepy, etc. And I like this "it was a long, pointless thing" (contributed by Matthew.. haha..). And another one contributed by Liew Kar Wai - "remember to bring your chips!". I hope I could have it in there. Sigh. Too bad, even sweets also I had to eat secretly. Haha.. Anyway, I've went through it. I'm gonna have my exam on Tuesday or Wednesday. If I pass, I can have my taklimat on Thursday and then my L license on Friday! Woohoo!!! That is if I can pass. Haha..

After the long and boring thing, my instructor sent me to church for EY. With an exhausted body and a mind that was going to doze off, I sat in there. Thanks to YEW WENG - the record breaker - who finished his sessions in liess than 20 minutes!!! And off we (me, Bernice and Ah Ling) go to Salim to treat my stomach who was "grumbling". Haha.. Hmm.. Never felt that roti canai and maggi goreng could be that delicious! And mind you! It's my second meal of maggi in a day. Woohoo!! My sayang!! Haven't been eating it for like 3 weeks [mum's policy :( ]. Anyway, I had 2 today and it's DELICIOUS!!! Keke..

Gonna sleep soon. I miss my bed and my piggy. Hehe.. Good night and sweet dreams everyone!

A very very very tiring day

I've been out almost the whole day. And I'm very tired. I didn't know that it's so tired after SPM. I didn't have a good sleep yesterday. And I had to wake up at 6 something this morning. I got ready and followed mum to work. Went to have breakfast with brother and mum, send brother to the bus and then off I go to the dental clinic. Did some scaling and walked back to mum's office (alone!). Unfortunately, when I was waiting for the traffic light to turn red (so that I can cross the road.. I'm a good pedestrian okay!), it so happened that there was a police truck with lotsa accused or prisoners (or whatever you call it) were in there. They were supposed to be sent to the "lokap". And they just looked and stared at me. I walked faster and dashed to my mum's room. Whew.. That was scary. This is what happens when your mum works in a court! Should I be thankful or not?

During lunch time, mum sent me to Jusco. Had a "date" with the youths. Went for a movie. But 2 different movies. Andrew and Fei Wong, being my "bodyguards", of course accompany for Madagascar 2 lar! Then the others (Shireen, Ah Qi, Ah Kai, Amelia Ling, Bernice and Kar Wai) went for Igor. That was in my movie list but now I'm gonna cancel it off. Cause they said it's boring. So, Igor, off you go! Bye bye! Madagascar 2 is definitely a worth-watch show!!! It's meaningful, humourous, interesting, good storyline, etc. The part which I love the most is the part where Melman the giraffe confessed to Gloria the hippo. It's so darn touching and romantic!!! When will it be my turn? Haha.. Nah..! Just crapping..! Such a nice show, I can't believe that someone actually got to doze off (you know who I'm talking right?). After the movie, went for some "walk walk" and headed to search for ice-cream (Kar Wai's idea). We ended up in a homemade ice cream shop. Gosh! There won't be a second time! Even if there is, I'll just have drinks.. just drinks. Headed home after that. After shower and meal, Andrew picked me up from home and headed to church for the Youth Rally practice. Then continued with jamming session. Went home early cause I was really tired and not in the mood to "jam". Plus, I've got to wake up 6 something in the morning tomorrow again for my undang as my intructor's gonna pick me up at 7.15 tomorrow. Gosh! A long and tiring day.. but it's a meaningful one. :)

Congratulation.. and celebration.. and jubilation.. and party!!!

Hari ini merupakan hari bersejarah untuk keluarga Chan. Hari ini merupakan hari terakhir SPM untuk anak bongsu mereka. Mulai hari ini, seisi keluarga tidak perlu lagi menahan rentetan, aduan dan sebagainya. Haha..

Today's my freedom day. I've got like so much to do. Gonna go out for Madagascar 2 tomorrow with some youths in the afternoon and practice for youth rally as well as jamming at night. Gonna go for undang session on Saturday. Gonna sit for undang on Monday. Gonna go out for movie again with classmates on Tuesday. Gonna go out to shop for synthesizer with katan and chow on Thursday. Gonna go back to school on Friday. Gonna go for holidays and stuffs. Woohoo!!! Fun!!! As today is my "birthday" (according to my dad), we have a scrumptious dinner. It's not those food like we usually have in restaurants, we have pizzas today!!! And brother preparedmushroom soup. Don't worry. It's safe! I'm still surviving here. I'm just kidding. But yea.. it's fun to be free from studies at the moment till around May or June next year. During this period of holiday, I'm gonna spend some time to do some studies (spiritual). I've got some books which I've dumped aside for some period of time. Procrastination is the thief of time. So, I'm gonna procrastinate no more! Hehe.. I hope it works this time. Hehe..

~Hmm.. delicious.. (eh! not that word please!!!)~

~the mushroom soup bro prepared (under the supervision of mum of course)~

~pepperoni delight (from NIE)~

~Italian-Japan Pan Pizza~

What are those for? To celebrate my independence la! What else? Haha.. After three weeks without my baby instant noodles (mum banned the food during my exam), it's so nice to eat something that's fast (as in fast food?). I just feel so.. so.. so.. nice. Don't know how to describe. Hehe.. Those exam days are just so hard to stand. Going back home after the papers, thinking what to study and revise for the next paper, it's just not fun! But now, it's totally a different story already. I've got wings to fly and to soar like an eagle or hawk or whatever it is. I've got freedom (still limited). I've got all the free time that I've longed for. I've got months of holiday where I can do so many things. Wootwoot!!! May God help me to make full use of my time. Amen

Another 3 days gone

4 more days.. 4 more subjects.. and I'M DONE!!! Weird as it may seems, I think I'm gonna miss school days and school exams. Time to rock with friends, have group discussions (studies, guys, girls, movies, relationships, film stars, etc.), time to play and joke with teachers, time to quarrel, and time to... much much more. Was so eager to leave school once upon a time and I can't believe that I'm actually leaving soon.. very soon (less than 1 week!!!). That's why! Humans are never satisfied with what they have. Don't have boyfriend or girlfriend, then desperate for one. Have already then think that it's troublesome. Weird.. Just so weird..

Oh, and please, when you see me, DON'T ask me about my papers or my exam. Those are nightmares! Slept only at 4 this morning and woke up at 6.30 for my 8.10 paper. Suffered till the last paper of the day which is 3.30. Exams are just headache! But, I must ENJOY the process. What has past is done. Don't ask anything about it for nothing can change it, except God's miracle. I've did it and the rest are all up to Him and Him alone. Now, I'll just have to strive for the last four papers. Looking forward to my freedom day. I've got like so many plans in my mind right now - driving lessons, Christmas, come back time (don't und? hehe..), holiday, RBS, EY (??), movies, date (HAHAHA..!! impossible!! just a blind hope) etc.

Very tired..

When can I get out of this mess? I'm not liking it right now! Oh Lord, please send your angels to me. Help me to go through this time of difficulties.

When trouble comes I trust in you
For I know you will lead me through
And I know you are faithful till the end

...

I know you're ALWAYS by my side

A nice day

Today is such a wonderful, fantastic, enjoying, etc. day. Firstly, I went to watch my long awaited movie - High School Musical 3!!! I always find it interesting cause it really reflects our lives as teenagers. And the songs are really nice. But I like the season 2 ones more. Anyway, thanks to Daphne for being my companion. I really had a great time girl! :) After the movie, we went for a short walk in Jusco. Then I headed home. Came back and did some crafts and went to bed. It was such a stupid nap. I set my alarm clock to 5.30. But I can't sleep. When I was dozing off, the alarm clock rang. So I set it to 5.45, thinking that I can still get a 15 minutes rest. Who knows when I was about to doze off, the house phone rang! Not my day to sleep I guess.

Surprisingly, I got the green light to go for caregroup. I went there so excited. And it was fun being there. But I really felt so sorry for someone. Sigh.. I really didn't mean to hurt you or make you feel bad. I'm so so so sorry. You know who you are. Apart from that, nothing much also. But, it's nice having so many people around. But, I hoped for something more actually. Anyway, what's done is done. :)

My movie list:

• Quantum of Solace (booked!)
• Madagascar 2 (booked!)
• Twilight (booked!)
  
• Beverly Hills Chihuahua
• Wild Child
• The Little Evil Scientist
• Bolt
  

So much for now. Toodles

3 days gone..

How time flies! 3 days have past. And I'm left with 7 days and 8 subjects. I'm so relieved. And there's something that I want to announce proudly. Drum roll please..

I've said GOODBYE to SEJARAH for the rest of my life!!! (I think and I SINCERELY hope)

I'm so glad that the paper is finally over. Whew.. I know many of you are asking how did I do and stuffs like that. Well, I know I can pass. And I'm glad to say that it's so far so good. I'm still surviving for I'm looking forward to the days after SPM. My time for movies. Oh.. Love them!!! Here's something I want to share for I myself was shocked that it came out from me.

I drew this while ______ cause I was so darn bored. Maybe it looks ordinary or maybe it looks like something that has simply been scribbled, but I really can't believe it that it actually came out from my hands... Gosh! As many of you know, I'm not those artistic person. So, it's kind of amazing knowing that I actually drew that. Haha.. And oh. Maybe you guys are asking whether I'm having sleeping problem again. And thank God - NO! I don't have it. Weird as it seems, I slept like a pig once I lie on the bed during my last 3 days. Hmm.. Enjoy my sleep so much. Hehe.. Thanks for your prayers. Appreciate them a lot. Don't stop oh..! Hehe.. Anyway, God's works are amazing. I've learnt to trust in Him. Before I start any paper, I just pray for God's guidance and then I start doing them. After finishing, I just commit it to the Lord and then it's either I go to sleep or I start scribbling stuffs on the draft paper. Well, I know I've done my best and I should leave the rest to God. And trust me, I won't think or worry about it cause I trust that God will take care of everything. So, if I happen to worry or think about it, remember to scream at me.. politely. Hehe.. And there's another conclusion that I drew - once you have committed the paper into God's hands, DON'T EVER CHANGE the answer!!! It's very wrong..!!! I've learnt my mistake. :(

Till then. See ya!

My SPM timetable..

11-Nov
8 - 10.15am ~ BM 1
11.10 - 12.10pm ~ SJ 1
2 - 4.30pm ~ BM 2

12-Nov
8 - 9.45am ~ BI 1
10.30 - 12.45pm ~ BI 2
2 - 4.30 pm ~ SJ 2

13-Nov
8.10 - 9.25am ~ MM 1
10 - 12.30 pm ~ MM 2

17-Nov
2 - 4.30pm ~ BK

18-Nov
8 - 10am ~ AM 1
10.30 - 1pm ~ AM 2
2 - 4.30pm ~ PM

20-Nov
8.10 - 9.25am ~ KM 1
10 - 12.30pm ~ KM 2
2 - 3.30pm ~ KM 3

24-Nov
8.10 - 9.25am ~ BL 1
10 - 12.30pm ~ BL 2
2 - 3.30pm ~ BL 3

25-Nov
8.10 - 9.25am ~ FZ 1
10 - 12.30pm ~ FZ 2
2 - 3.30pm ~ FZ 3

26-Nov
8 - 10.15am ~ BC 2
11 - 12.45pm ~ BC 1

27-Nov
11.40 - 12.40pm ~ EST 2
2 - 3.15pm ~ EST 1

Sincerely seeking for prayers!!!

SHOULD be my last post until SPM ends..

I wish to cry
But I don't know why
I wish to have a shoulder to lean on forever
But I don't have
I wish to be stress-free
But it's kind of impossible
I wish for so many so many things
But it's impossible for me to get everything

Now
I wish that my SPM will end soon
But I still need to wait for about 3 weeks
I'm coming back soon
I'm really coming back soon
So
People wait for me (if you will)

Move fingers move..! Dance fingers dance..!

I didn't plan to post anything special actually. Just wanted my fingers to "dance". Hehe.. Firstly, I would want to wish my piggy brother, Clarence, a very Happy Birthday! Secondly, I want to thank your prayers. Yesterday was the best sleep ever for the past one week. Though I woke up suddenly during my sleep (due to a dream.. forgot what was it about), but I really rested. Slept soundly.. Yea.. that's the phrase! I think. Thirdly, I'm still struggling through my Sejarah. Why do we have to have Sejarah in SPM? How nice if it's not a compulsory subject. Study is like so more than enough. Why study it for exam? Haiz.. That's our local system anyway. Will have to bear with it as long as I'm here. Pray for me.. I need wisdom, patience, calmness, GOOD MEMORY, __________ (fill in the blanks).

Tiring day..

Today was so called my last day in school. So, as usual, we need to arrange for our SPM exam and stuffs like that. And the worst part was running up and down, searching high and low for a teacher to enter the annoying SMS in our school. It's not the SMS we always use in our phones, it's some kind of online report card. And I tell you, it's so darn troublesome! And yea..! I ran up and down, round and round the whole school just to get it done. Sweat! After all the exercising, I headed to the MPH for the taklimat. Nothing special actually. After the taklimat, we went for recess. Finally a break for my tummy! Last day in my school canteen.. Went to buy my favourite chinese laksa and ikan lekor. Hmm.. delicioso..! After the recess, it's another round of taklimat. Basically, we can get everything from our timetable booklet. Yet, for rules' sake, we had to listen to the PK repeat them all over again when we can actually read it from the booklet. Sigh.. So time consuming!!! After the time consuming thingy, we had to arrange tables. How I wished I was in a co-ed school.. All the shifting tables and chairs from floor to floor, all the heavy work.. all be done by guys and not us.!! Sigh.. Anyway, we still had to do it. If not, who would? Duh! So, after finishing those stupid stuffs, we got to know that we're not arranging for ourselves but other classes! Gosh! Anyway, we went to our so called exam hall. And being an obedient student, we went for the "practice how to line up" session. After that, SCHOOL DISMISSAL!!! Whew.. But come back tuition pula! Aiyo.. Wanted to take a nap but can't go to sleep. Just managed to close my eyes to rest. Went I so called woke up, I quickly asked my brother to change and fetched me to 7-eleven for slurpee! Being a good and kind sister, I gave him a treat. Anyway, it's fun.. having slurpee for tuition. Hehe..

SPM's gonna come real sooooon. Don't know whether I'll have the time to update the blog or not. But, I think I'll still spend time to update it. We'll see how then.

My souvenir?

Yup! My brother reached yesterday night. And that was what he bought for me - Kinder bueno! See that? 16 individually wrapped bars! Whoa..!! My snack during my exam period. Cool..! Though it's fattening, I don't mind this time cause people said I lost weight lately. Some said due to preparation for SPM. But, the point is.. I don't think that I'm thinner but fatter instead. So, is it optical illusion or what? Anyway, I'm gonna eat them all up!! Woohoo!!! Eat first, care later. That's what Dr Chew always tell me. *grin*

Aku dilanda masalah lagi..

I was having good sleeps after I posted the post on having sleeping problems until... yesterday. Yup! I'm having the same problem again. I slept this time. But, I woke up a few times. So, is that considered a good sleep then? Is it really because of exam? Hmm.. Weird.. weird.. weird..

Brother's coming back today!!! Woohoo!!! I want my souvenir!!! You remember anot? My souvenir.. my souvenir.. my souvenir..

Great night worship

Today was another time of night worship. I don't why. When I entered the hall, I somehow felt that I shouldn't be there. But, I sat down. And they were playing the song "For all you've done". And somehow, I raised up my hands and started singing. I don't know why. It just raised up without me knowing. So, yea.. slowly I got into the mood and I started worshipping. And, that song "Lord, you are always here with me" touches my heart once again. And for the open worship, I played the piano. Actually, Jonathan played for the led worship and he asked me whether I could play for the open worship. And, I said, "Okay.. I'll help you out." I didn't directly agree actually. But, yea. I sat there and I played. Every song that I played, I felt so happy (due to several reasons). I'll only share one of them here. To be honest, after I got my practical results for my piano, my confidence for piano somehow shattered. And, I don't dare to even play the piano. At home, I tried playing and finding back the feelings that I used to have. But, I just couldn't. The piano is tuned right after my practical exam. And I just didn't touch it for I always say I'm busy or else. And when I got my results, I just couldn't make myself play the piano. And when I did, I just felt that I'm actually just simply banging the piano and making sound out of it. But tonight, it's great! Really great! I played the piano all by myself. And I succeeded! It's really a great joy. Actually, if it's not Kian Aun who told me about it, I wouldn't have notice it also. Haha.. Yea.. That was one reason. Others, I can't really share here. :P

Apart from that, Yew Weng's message was also a good one. Short and simple. Haha.. Firstly, know yourself. Secondly, know your needs. Thirdly, know His heart. Actually, I'm very touched by the message. Yew Weng, just in case you noticed I kept looking down. Actually, I was typing your slides in my handphone. I didn't have anything to write down so my handphone was my only way. But, sad too say. When I wanted to post it up the blog, I only noticed that I didn't save it. Sigh.. But, I can still recall them, at least some. I remember the part where you said will you extend your hand when God extends His hands to help you. Actually, I was kind of tensed when I got to know that SPM is coming in 9 days' time. And, I was so darn scared. But, after today's worship and message. I somehow felt that the stones that were piling up on me were moved away. A sense of relieve? I think it's like that. Something like that. And you requested for the song "Lord, you are always here with me" again. And it touched me for the second time in just one night worship. Haha.. Amazing..

I really enjoyed today's night worship. Thank you Ricky for songleading, Eliza for backing up in singing, Andrew for playing the drums, Clarence and Glenn for playing the guitar, Yan Hoe for playing the bass, Jonathan for playing the piano, Ah Kai for doing the slides and someone whom everyone had forgotten - BERNICE!!! for standing beside Jonathan to give him support and also helping me to find score books. Thanks guys! Thank you, Lord!