Firstly.. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Nice title huh? Hehe.. Xie Li gave me the idea for the title. You must be wondering why. I've not blog for more than 2 weeks!!! WAKAKAKA.. I'm so proud!!! =P Okay, so much for the SS part.

I must admit that after coming back from Indonesia, I've been quite aimless. Luckily, I was helping out in church. Well, at least there's something to do. And so many things happened for the past 2 1/2 weeks. Let's see.

Firstly, my walk with God wasn't that consistent. I missed my time for devotion for a few days. Most humans are like that, right? Whenever we're in good conditions, we seldom (or maybe never) think of God or praise Him for all that we have. BUT, when we're in the lowest of our day, we will question God why is He doing that to us. And yup! I guess God did taught me the lesson. When I was waiting for the results for my scholarships, all of a sudden, I got to know that I got a place in the matriculation. And I was like, "WHAT!!?? God why are you doing this to me? I applied for this out of obligation and I NEVER EVER even thought of checking the results. And all of a sudden You give me this!? What can I do there? It's so "ulu". And the teaching course which I prefered so much, You took it away from me. Are you playing a joke with me or something? What's going on?" During that period, it was kind of the one of the lowest day in my life. Yes, I know. I said I submit everything to God and I'll go anywhere He wants me to be. But, it's easier said than done. And this time round, it's REALLY hard for me to accept as I'm sent to a place that I've never even heard before. Then, I realised. All these while, I've said that God will never leave us nor forsake us (provided that WE seek for Him). I've not been doing my quiet time and I've not been reading His Word. And so, I stopped everything I that I was doing and went inside my room with my devotional material and my journal (where I write my insights). By the way, I still journal everyday (just not devotion). Yea, thanks to Wan Li and Kian Aun for this book. I love it. It's called - Daily Steps for God Chicks - by Holly Wagner. And I opened the book to the page where I stopped. And the verse for that day was ...

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
Psalm 119:105

I was like, "Whoa!" I felt so lost at the moment because I didn't know what was God's will for me. I was like a blind girl (can I call myself girl? sounds younger :P) walking without a stick or a guide (one word - AIMLESSLY!). I felt that my future is so dark and blur. I don't know what is ahead of me and that feeling is just so NOT NICE! Things got worse when I got to know that I was offered an interview for a local teaching course. And guess what? I'm supposed to register in Pahang on 11th May and my interview is in Perak on the 12th. I was more confused then. When I read the verse and the reading materials below, I felt God is indeed always there for me. It's just the matter whether I want to cry out to Him and ask Him for help or not. And most of the time, I choose to shun Him and place Him inside a box. And yea, I've learnt my lesson.

I particularly like these ...

Many times in my life, I have found myself stumbling over decisions because I have not let the Word of God bring in the light. His Word will light our path. Without the illumination of His Word, we can find ourselves tripping not so gracefully through life.

Not only is God's Word the greatest love letter ever, but it is also our instruction manual for living.

God's Word is a lamp to our feet...... which means that it provides illumination for the next step we must take.

There are just so many things that we must decide. And sometimes, we like to depend on our own strength to decide. And this creates stress and anxiety. Life is indeed full of things that we don't expect. But, if we let go of our selfish ambitions and thoughts and let God light our way, then only we can experience what is the real journey with God.

Tagged: some random things, habits and goals about me

I didn't plan to do this. But, since it's by my tuition teacher. Haha.. And tada!!!

::sixteen random things, habits or goals" about me::

*Hoping and trying to have a consistent walk with God
*Hope to watch 2 to 3 movies in cinema per day (for once).
*Hope to improve my singing (I miss my choir)
*Hope to go for PITH
*Hope to get full scholarship
*Find it very hard to submit everything to God.
*But, am trying very hard to do so. =)
*Want to serve Him (in areas that He has chosen for me)
*Looking forward to Extreme Prayer
*Love spicy food
*Love sentimental songs
*Love movies/dramas that make people cry
*Adore kids
*Trying hard to read Christian books
*Going to Nilai soon (fish spa!!!)
*Learning to play some songs

I'm done!!! Aaron, here's the tag I owed you. :P

Did you notice? It's exactly a month..

It's exactly a month since I graduated from RBS 2009. It's exactly a month since I celebrated my birthday. It's exactly a month I've been living without the 46+6.

How are you boys and girls doing now? Are you all still doing your devotion daily? Are you still journaling everyday? Are you still fire up for God? Are you still praying everyday? Are you still sensitive to God's small voice? Are you still this and that? Oh man! I really missed the time we had. But, we've expected all these from the very day we registered for it. We will have to leave each other and put what we've learnt into practice.

It's exactly a month from my birthday. I'm officially 18 years and 1 month old now (crap!). And I thought, I should write this down before I forget. This year is one of the most memorable days I've ever had in my life. I've always pictured myself with a bunch of my friends around, celebrating my birthday. And this time round, I celebrated it with the 46+6 friends that I've made. And honestly, I'm contented.

First birthday cake was with Joshua, Andy, Sue Jern and Calvin on Joshua's birthday. It's carrot cake (if I'm not mistaken).

The night before my birthday, my mission team - Kirton - , celebrated with me. And it was quite random actually. I was practicing for the next morning's worship. Then, Bridget came and asked me to go out to see her shoes. I was like, "Huh? Shoes?" And when I was near the gate, I saw loads of feet outside. And I saw my team mates (Alex, Calvin, Hannah, Jason, KC and Shu En). I sensed something. And they started singing the birthday song. I was so touched! Though the shoes thing was so random, thanks Bri! And thank you Alex for the 2 slices of cheese cakes! I was just joking about it. I didn't know you really go and buy the cheese cakes. Anyway, thank you!

The D-day! Graduation day! It was supposed to be a sad day as we were saying goodbye to each other. But, people are wishing me HAPPY birthday. How contradicting! Haha.. Anyway, thank you for all your wishes and presents. I love them!!! And before leaving for Ipoh after the graduation, I was given another cake. This time, it's another cheese cake! My all time favourite blueberry cheese cake!!! Thank you Ken!

And during graduation day, many of my prayers were answered. I prayed for my brother to come for my grad and he came (though he missed his last train back to Nilai). I prayed that Matt and Jenn will come for my grad and they came.. with my present :P ! Hehe.. Actually, their presence is my present. =) And another prayer that I've been praying for almost 1 and a half year was finally answered. A friend who was not talking to me for 1 and a half year came to my graduation! And we talked. =) During the course of RBS, I was urged strongly to write a letter to him after some of the sessions. Though I sent it during the last week in Cameron, I did it! And it worked! I was talking to my youth advisor then. And he suddenly walked out from my youth advisor's back. I was stunned and speechless! Tears of joy really rolled down! THANK GOD for answering my prayer. THANK GOD for my room mates for supporting me through the times. Thanks Bri and Jacey! Thank you Kian Aun, Uncle William, Glenn, Daphne, and Steven for making the trip to PJGH!

I want to thank the 6! Who are they? Uncle Dexter (my principal), Aunty May Lee (my staff mentor), Colin (my piano teacher.. can I call you that? :P), Rudi (the guru disiplin :P), Ee May and Sue Jern (for being there whenever I needed you). Thank you for spending the 5 weeks with us! Although it was tiring to take care of the 47 handsome and beautiful youths, you guys persevered without any complaints. And thanks to Anderson and Jia Ling for being my mission team supervisors! You two have helped us a lot during the mission week. =)

Thank you dad and mum for allowing me to go for RBS. If not, I would not be who am I now. Thank you for taking leave from work and travel all the way from Ipoh to be there for my graduation. Thank you to my church members for supporting me and also praying for me.

Thanks to GOD for making everything happen. =)

To my fellow 46 pals, do continue to shine brightly for the Lord! Don't let the fire that is burning within you extinguish. Support each other in prayer! Do check out on each other's life once in a while. Remember Joshua's challenge to us. Keep in touch! Love you!

That's for RBS...

Back in Ipoh...

Fellow EYs and Elim members, please continue to remember me in prayer. I pray that I will be a useful servant in His work. Hope that I can use my gifts and talents to serve Him in areas that He thinks is best. =)

*I think I've had 7 different kinds of cakes for my birthday this year. :P [4 from RBS 3 from Ipoh]

Indonesia mission trip (Part 2)

Finally, it's time to write a full report of the trip I went. Haha.. I'm so sorry for the delay. Anyway, here goes...

Like I've said earlier, I've did a lot of extraordinary things there. I've never thought that I'll do something like that (honestly!!!). Firstly, the first night I spent in the village with the poor, I was brought to do some visitation. As blur as I was, I didn't know who we were visiting (AT ALL!). I thought it was just merely some poor people who are Christians. And visiting them would encourage them. So we went. That's where God's planning come into the picture. The people we visited are actually ex-lepers. Some of them lost one of their legs, some lost their fingers and so on. The first house we visited was a pair of couples. Both of them were ex-lepers. They have this grocery shop which I would say quite well managed. They were told by our host that we are from Malaysia on a mission trip to Indonesia. First thing that came out of their mouth was "Puji Tuhan". And one of them actually told us that our visitation was as though Jesus was coming to them Himself. I was so amazed with their faith. All the 3 houses that we visited, 2 of the houses have ex-lepers. And "Puji Tuhan", these 2 words are always mentioned. I mean, I can't do that if I were them. With the poverty and the sickness I once had, I would asked whether God knows of my presence. Why is He giving me these? But they didn't! They just "Puji Tuhan" all the way through. And they actually have this dawn prayer every morning at 5a.m.! And I woke up to join them the next morning. I didn't have a good sleep (or rather I didn't sleep at all?). There isn't any fan in the room. Gosh! Darn hot! Back home? I have a 2 fans in my room. If I'm hot, I can just switch on the air-cond. How blessed I am!

Apart from that, I'm very impressed by the ministries that the Indonesians are involved in. I was very encouraged by them. They started training youths that are about 13 or 14 to give sermons. And they will encourage them all the time until they can do it well. They were given the chance and the exposure that we can hardly find in Malaysia. I actually witnessed that with my own eyes. When we were joining them for their Teens Service on the 21st, I actually saw a 16 year old girl giving a message. Though I didn't really understand what she was talking due to the language barrier. But having the courage to stand in front of 450 people, it means something! Another thing to highlight is the sports ministry. Though I'm not into sports, their sports ministry really made me go "wow!". They have so many coaches for so many teams. They have so many ways to reach out to the people there. You can read more about it here - http://www.genb-max7.com/.

Talking about the Teens Service we went, I gave my testimony. I guess preparing it in RBS did helped me. I had Josephine to do translation for me. My testimony was related to RBS, too. I shared something about piano. Here's the story. I was away for RBS when my team started to prepare for the mission trip (thousand apologies for that). But I did my part in RBS also. I prepared my testimony. Hehe.. And I wasn't told of anything else apart from the testimony. When I came back from RBS, I was told to act in a skit. And there I was, practicing for the skit. And this time round, it's really mission trip - to be prepared for the unexpected. My skit wasn't used. Instead, I was asked to summarise one of the skits and link it to my testimony. And guess what, I agreed to it. ME being ME, would not have agreed to do so so easily. After agreeing to it, I had no inkling AT ALL what to do. I was told about it on a Thursday night and the Teens Service was on Saturday. With the Extreme Prayer on Friday night, I knew I didn't have much time to prepare. I thought I'll just write the summary and give my testimony, that's all! Friday came and passed. Saturday came and Teens Service was coming!!! I haven't even write down anything. When we had our lunch, I was thinking of what to share. I didn't know. I started to panic. What am I going to do? I've got my main point to share - focus -, but I don't have the details to share. Then, thanks to Amos for giving me THAT KIND OF preparation! He told me that when he went there the week before to share, 475 people turned up. I was like.. what!!?? I was only told 300 to 350. That's a big difference! I was so scared that when I went in the car, I started scribbling every single thought that came into my mind. Everyone said I'll be fine. But I did not think so. I could hardly imagine myself standing in front of 475 people, talking in BM!!! That was really a hard time. The place where the Teens Service was is actually a big hall in a mall. Yes! A lot of churches have their services in a hall in the mall. Cool right? Anyway, back to the story. When we walked into the hall, everybody was staring at us. I was thinking, those eyes will be looking at me later. And when I sat down, I could feel my hands freezing. I could hardly breathe. I was reading my testimony and summary over and over again. But nothing got into my mind. All that I could think of was - the eyes. Haha.. Anyway, Ricky and Amos were affirming me and stuffs. My team was trying hard to keep me calm. And finally it arrived! Ricky, I still remember you gave me 3 minutes but I spoke longer than that. But, I'm sorry. 3 minutes is really so not enough for me. I've only gave 1/4 of my testimony (of course the main point). Hehe.. Give me a longer time (if there is a next time :P). Thank God that I've pulled through with His strength. And when they did a headcount for the attendance that day, there were 450 people! I spoke in front of 450 people!!! Woohoo!!! And I hope something went into their mind that day. God, I hope I made you proud. =)

Basically, that's about it! But something to share. I think that God placed me in this mission trip for a purpose. He gave me a chance to see the great things that the Indonesians have done in their country. They've done it! What about us? I really pray that something will happen in Malaysia. I really pray that something will happen in Elim and in EY. Everybody has to play a part. It doesn't matter matter whether you're in Indonesia or Malaysia. It doesn't matter whether you're in Ipoh or KL. It doesn't matter whether you're in secondary school or in college. When there's people, there's the ministry. Keep this in mind! Let's continue to be God's tools to extend His Kingdom!

A song that touched many of the team members. =)