Only Love - Trademark

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
Chorus
But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

[Chorus]
That's something only love can do

Broken friendship

This phrase has been in my mind for a long period of time. Actually, this can be considered as a regret. A regret that will haunt me. Even if it doesn't haunt for 24 hours a day, it will still haunt me for at least a few minutes or seconds in a day. I have always wondered when this friendship can be mend. Is it within seconds? Minutes? Hours? Days? Weeks? Months? Years? Or even a life time? I know it's so stupid of me to have such thoughts. Deep inside me, I knew that it's impossible. BUT, there's only one person who can mend this - God. I've been praying and praying and praying for it for such a long time. Sometimes, I do feel tired. But, I know that persistence is all that matters. And I know God has His purpose for the answer "wait" or even the answer "no". Because He knows what is best for me. He would not give me something that He thinks is not good. However, sometimes, humans just find it difficult to trust and be patient. And I think I'm one of them.

Father Lord, I know You are the great and Almighty one. Without You, I am nothing. I pray that You will give me the strength to continue. I pray that may my faith in You will grow as time goes by. Amen

You can whisper in the crowd to him
You can cry when you're alone with him
You don't have to pray out loud to him
He knows your thoughts
On a lofty mountain peak, he's there
In a meadow by the stream, he's there
Everywhere on earth you go
He's been there from the start

I'm sure there's a reason for the songwriter to write this song.

One word.. WONDERFUL!!!

Today was the long awaited day. It's the International Youth Rally..!!! 4 churches were chosen to lead the singspiration (or worship). They are - Ipoh Wesley, CGMC, CGBC and my church ~ Elim!!!. The whole day was raining today (as the Ipoh-ians know). So, I said to myself that, "God purposely let the rain pour now so that there will be no rain tonight." When the finale started, it was still drizzling. So, I thought, "God wants us to have a cooling condition to worship Him. Yes! It must be like this." And true enough, the rain STOPPED!!! Thank God! So, it went on and on and on. Until Uncle Steven started sharing, I don't know why. Tears somehow started to swell up in eyes. Don't ask my why. I really don't know. I managed to control it until we had our round prayer for our team. I couldn't stand it anymore. Tears started rolling down and down and down. Some thought I was nervous. But, I'm not! I was told that one of our youths raised up the hand when Uncle Steven asked who would like to commit themselves to God. I was so glad!

Having people coming from different country to worship God is really wonderful!

One heart, one spirit
One voice to praise You
We are the body of Christ

Finally, it was our turn! We went up there and gave out our best! Yup! Our very best!!! I don't know about the others. But me? I managed to worship. Thank God! Towards the end, I was jumping with the team. I think, for those who know me, their specs must have dropped. Haha.. Everyone thinks that I'm a girl who is controlled strictly by my dad. Yea.. I daddy's girl and sort of thing. Anyway, I'm not there to show other people anything. I just want to tell everyone that with God, everything is possible. Thinking back on what we did just now? It's really fantastic! Indeed God is Almighty! May our singing and praises be pleasing unto Him!

To give you praise
In everything I do
And all the praise goes out to You!!!!!

Something that touches me..

Matthew 18:1-4
1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" 2 He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3 And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
(NIV Bible)

In this scripture passage, Jesus calls us to become like little children. The call isn't to be childish, but to simply be child like. Young children know that they are needy. They look to their parents to provide everything that they need and want...food, clothing, shelter, teaching, activities, guidance and even discipline. They are like love sponges, having the capacity to soak into their little bodies as much love as we can give them. They live for hugs and kisses and meaningful touch, an intimate connection that affirms them and tells them that they are welcome into this world and that they are greatly loved.

Jesus calls us to become like little children. Since Jesus says that becoming child-like is a pre-requisite to entering the Kingdom of Heaven, we should take note of another characteristic of a little child. Simple faith. Little children have the faith to simply believe that they will receive what they need when they need it. They don't worry about it, they don't strive over it, they simply expect it.

When my youngest daughter Candice, was very small, she was completely confident that I had an unlimited supply of personal finances for her to draw from. Whenever she wanted something extravagant, she would tell me just to go to the bank and get the money, because they had lots. "Just go to the bank dad" she would say. I think in some ways that God wants us to relate to him like my daughter, Candice related to me.

No worries, no striving, just complete confidence in the ability of her father to meet her needs. While my little girl did not always get what she wanted when she wanted it, I couldn't help but to delight in her boldness and her complete trust in me. As you read this devotional, my challenge to you is to simply let yourself become very little. The expectations in the world we live in are often to be very grown up. While maturity and responsibility are wonderful attributes, for a moment, set aside the strong, self-sufficient, independent you and allow yourself to become very small and needy before God.

He wants to pick you up, give you a hug, and whisper your name in your ear. You are his child, and he is your Father. This is your destiny, this is what you were created for. When you let Him love you in this way, as a father loves his little child, you will begin to realize that you are still a love sponge, and the need for love and affirmation that you had as a little child is still there within you. When we allow ourselves to be embraced by God, we begin to see that this is what we have been looking for all our lives. We may have searched for it in careers, relationships, and in many others things, but we only find it in one place…the arms of our Heavenly Father.

PRAYER
Heavenly Father, I pray that you would give me the grace to become more childlike. I want to walk in the simplicity of faith that allows me to trust you wholeheartedly for all my needs. I want all that is within me to cry out Abba Father just like Jesus did. In the name of Your beloved Son, Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.

(Excepts from the Father's Love Letter Devotional)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

It's 1st of January 2009 (crap)!!! Which means it's a new year, a new life, a new chapter, a new beginning and so much more "new". I'm 18 this year! Which means I get to watch movies that I wasn't allowed to for the past 17 years. I'm not despo for it. But, I feel like I'm a grown up now. Hehe.. Anyway, Happy New Year to all and all the best throughout the whole year! I wonder what will happen this year. hmm...