Tempations.. temptations.. I'm trying to overcome it..!

I was chatting with Kok Ming and he was so darn bad! Say so many things about BBQ. I know I can't go tonight. So, I'll just have to imagine them in my mind.

Thinking of chicken..

Thinking of sausages.. hotdogs..

Is there any special delivery service just like Mcdonalds and Pizza Hut but F.O.C with a willing heart?

It's all coming back.. It's all coming back to me now..

Guessing what do I mean huh? It's the sleeping problem again. Didn't know that it "attacks" me so early this time. Have been having this problem for a couple of days. I don't know whether this time it is due to the ghost stories I heard last night or it is the real sleeping problem. I guess both contributed to it. I was so darn tired but I just can't sleep. My eyes were going read already and I was yawning all the way. But, I JUST CAN'T SLEEP!!! Aarrgghh!!! I prayed for a few times and.. I managed to sleep at about 1 something. Thank God! I woke up at 6 in the morning for school. Sigh.. It's coming back again. When only it will say," Bye bye! I won't come and find you anymore."? When can you leave me alone!? Can I survive until SPM ends? Even if I can't, I still MUST survive. Help me, O Lord!

Deepavali.. oh deepavali.. because of you I get good food..!!

Yeap! It's Deepavali for Indians but "makan" time for me!! Haha..

~Mutton curry~
~chicken~

~"iteli"? (i think its spelling is like that)~

~veggie~

~thosai (home-made oh!!)~

~"putu mayung"??~

~don't know what it calls (but it's food for sure)~

~mutton "dhal"~
~Overall.. MY FOOD!!!~

After having a scrumptious Deepavali lunch, I had ice-cream and cake for my supper! Yup! It's Michael's birthday (someone whom I always call "lou dao" cause Mei Chan's like my "ma zi"). Anyway, we went to this Sidewalk Ice-cream something which is near my place to celebrate his birthday. And, we bought this chicken that makes this annoying sound for him (specially picked by Shireen). We had a great time fellowshipping there. Among us were Michael, Mei Chan, Daniel, Adrin, Andrew (my chaffeur.. just joking.. :P), Glenn, Shireen, Amelia and me. I had three scoops of ice-cream and it tasted not bad. Oh oh oh.. Not forgetting to give credit to my favourite flavour - YAM!!! Hmmm.. delicious! Thank you "lou dao" and "ma zi" for the ice-cream and cake. Thank you Andrew for fetching me thro and fro. Thank you daddy and mummy for allowing me to go out. And thank you guys for the ghost stories. It really scared me..!

It's my 100th post!!!

Initially, I wanted to post a post of gratitude with those pictures of people who made impacts in my life. But then, I came back from BK class last Thursday and got to know that the church library is going to be tear down. So, I thought why not I give a credit to my church library. And yup! Here am I blogging about my church library, who was once my favourite hideout and place that has lotsa memories.

Let's start off. I spent most of my Sunday School years in this building. I remembered I spent my Standard 1 and 2 in Aunty Labrooy's class. Aunty Labrooy used to teach us bible stories. And I remember everytime I'll go ino the class as early as possible to get a nice seat. A seat that can have a good view of her and is windy. Haha.. And I remember I enjoyed those colouring sessions in her class. I actually coloured Matthew's drawings which I thought Aunty Labrooy photostated it from any Sunday School material. This means that Matthew really has got talent in arts ever since he was.. hmm.. how old? Don't know. Give it a guess or go ask him. Gosh! I missed those times. I used to sit on those little little chairs with different colours. Can rotate the colours every Sunday if I wanted to. Haha..

When I was in Standard 3 and 4, Aunty Lim Mun was my class teacher. As we'd grew older in age, there weren't much colouring. Sigh.. Anyway, I still enjoy Aunty Lim Mun's class. I remember we girls like to sit one side and boys will sit the other side (but normally guys can't occupy one side so girls will go and fill up the empty spaces). I always liked to sit beside Aunty Lim Mun and I was rather bossy at that time. I don't let anyone sit at MY PLACE. Cause I think I should sit there. I know, it's childish. I admit it. I was a kid back then! What you expect? Aunty Lim Mun liked giving us stickers if we remember our memory verse well. And I'm still having them till today. It's collection (not childish okay!!!). She gave us chops for attendance, memory verses, asnwering question and etc. It was a system in our Sunday School back then. Then, you can redeem gifts using those chops that you have collected. Yea.. Those times were fun! And I celebrated my birthday in that building, too! It was when I was Standard 3 I think. I begged my mum to celebrate my birthday there cause it so happened to be my birthday fell on a Sunday. And I remember my mum bought a cake that I dislike - orange cake. Eww.. It tasted like medicine. Anyway, it was out of good intention.

Standard 5.. Guess who was my teacher? It's Adrin! Yes, Adrin Yeap! Surprised huh? I remember my class had Xie Li, Clara, Yan Hoe, Glenn, Shaun, Geraldine, Kimberly and etc. We had a classroom in the building but we somehow complained that it was hot and stuffs. So, we shifted to the hall for air-cond. Haha.. I remembered I quarrelled with Yan Hoe in that classroom until I cry. Yea.. So cool! Haha..

After that, I didn't spend my time in that building for Sunday School anymore. I remember me, Xie Li and Clara were once best friends. But, don't know what happened now. We're still friends, but not as close as before. Maybe it's due to our different involvement in church. I remember playing "1.. 2.. jus!" on the staircase of the building. It was fun! Haha.. It was sort of like a hideout for us. We used to chit chat up there after Elim Kids (which doesn't exist anymore). But, it have been years since I last went up there. Sunday School weren't there anymore. The second floor where we used to have our Sunday School classes was sorta closed down due to white ants attack! And, we weren't allowed to go up there. At first, I couldn't stop myself from going up there. So, I sneaked up and walked one round to gaze to my heart's content. Haha.. But, I can't do so when it was locked up when the adults found out that some people sneak up there (like me). So, for safety purposes, it was locked! Haiz.. So, cannot sneak up anymore.

We also had prize giving ceremony there for our Children Holiday's Club. Those were my time. Haha.. Imagine I was just in kindergarten or so? Yea.. Many years back. It's a place for breakfast, a place to chit chat for the older people, a place to cook for breakfast, a place to prepare tea, a place to measure blood pressure, a place to play and lots lots more. So, we'll have to bare with the months where we don't have a kitchen of our own to prepare breakfast like usual, no tea for months for breakfast in church like usual (doesn't affect me cause I don't drink tea), less place to chit chat, more prone to have accidents (choi!! choi!! choi!!) and etc.

In conclusion, this building is meaningful to me. It contains my childhood memories. It reminds me of how I got to know people like Shireen, Bernice, Glenn, Kimberly, Geraldine, Shaun, and etc. Now that it's going down, I wish you all the best and take care (what crap am I talking!?). As people always say, "Old don't go, new won't come". It's true! I'm looking forward to the new building. It will be a new hideout place for me and the youths. Heard that we're shifting there for our youth meeting. Wootwoot!!! Syok! It's not that I like new and abandon the old. I'm just being optimistic - think of the good things rather than the bad things. :) Anyway, we're gonna say goodbye to it on Tuesday. Sayonara.. my beloved!

Say HELLO to RBS!!!

Oh yes! Oh yes! Oh yes! Finally dad signed the RBS form last night! I was like.. so SUPER DUPER HYPER HAPPY..!!! But, I still have to do my part. I need to strive my best till SPM ends (dad's condition). If not, I'll have to ... Hehe.. Better than no hope wert. After all, it's just study. Even if he doesn't set that rule, I will still have to study. Right? So, it doesn't matter much anyway. But, having that rule coming out from my dad's mouth means - less television, less online, less relaxing, more study, more revision, more revision and more study. You have to pay a price to get what you want right? I'm paying mine now. =)

Woohoo!!! I'm coming RBS!!! Wait for me..! I'm so excited. Muakaka..

Night worship

Somehow of you might be wondering, "Eh.. I thought you say you're not going for night worship wan.. How come still blogging about it?" I must admit that God really works in His way, miraculous way! Dad allowed me to go and he even fetched me there. And he even STAYED on! Though he didn't have the intention to attend the worship (cause he just went there to look into the P.A. system as there were some complaints), he joined the worship (surprisingly!!). And, through the way he shared, I was touched. Yes, I was touched. Initially, I thought he might say, "You all always like to bang the instruments", "Ok lar.. the worship was ok lar.." and etc. But, out of the blue, he enjoyed it (somehow). And just as what Wan Li said, "God works in His ways!" And yes He does!!!

Okay.. So much for that. Coming back to the night worship, it was a good time of worship. Thanks Kar Wai (senior) and the musicians too!!! The message was the highlight of the night (at least for me). It really sent me into a deep deep thinking. Kian Aun talked about authentic Christian living. He started off with the denial of Peter. Peter who claimed that he will never deny Jesus actually denied Jesus for three times, just as Jesus predicted earlier. I don't deny God like Peter did. In fact, I tell others that I'm a Christian openly and proudly. But, one thing that Kian Aun said really strucked me. Denying God doesn't mean that it's by words only, it's also by our actions. This I have to make confessions. The things that I do in my school daily don't reflect that I'm God's child. I admit that I gossip, I comment, I dislike people (and comment them in front of others), etc. I know it's wrong but most of the time I just gave into temptations. Everytime I ask for forgiveness and everytime I know God forgives me but most of the time I repeat them again, again and again. I know you all might say, "We are human. Sometimes we do give in to temptations." But, don't you think that you can actually do something about it? At least I want to. And he also said about something on this parade thingy. Supposedly God is having a parade and you are in the parade, would you stand right in front of the parade and shout with God? Or would you stand far away from God and just utter the words that those people are shouting in front? I don't know what I would do then but I want to do something about it. I'm putting a challenge to myself and I'm making a stand. From today onwards, I will live a life that reflects I'm a Christian. I don't whether I can or not. But at least I will try. I know, if we take the first step and do our part, God will surely help pull us through. So, what are you going to do? Thank you Kian Aun for the message. =)

Night worship

I know this is kinda late. But I still want to blog about the night worship last Saturday. Better late than none right? That worship really touched a lot. I'm serious! Every single song.. the lyrics that came out from the mouths are as though God was talking to me. It was so amazing! And without me knowing it, tears started flowing out (at least for the 3 songs listed below). It was really so darn touching you know! There are three songs that touched me the most that night - Through it all, How could I live and Lord You are always here with me.

Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, hallelujah

*He's forever in our lives. It all depends whether you want to acknowledge it or not. He's always there for us no matter what happens. Sometimes I feel very bad about this. Most of us only know how to seek God when we're in the midst of troubles and sorrow. We seldom look for God and tell Him that we're happy and we're glad about things that happened. But, He, on the other hand, never forsakes us no matter what circumstances that we encounter. During that night worship, I was worrying about some decision I had to make because of my parents. And it somehow tells me that no matter what decision that I make, God is always there for me. I can still do the things that I want to do even though I can't be physically there for the activities that I can't attend. God understands. He will carry me with His own arms and He will never let go of me forever.

How could I live without You
How could I live without You
How would I survive
Without Your love, without Your touch
You’re the One that heals me
Cleanses my heart
And sets me… free

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I come right before You
With my hands lifted up
And my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hung there and died
You were paying the price for my life
For my life

For Your love
Is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the sea
All I want it You in my life
No one else can satisfy my soul
And makes me feel this way
Only You Lord, only You

* This song touched me even deeper. All these while, whenever I have anything that really makes me sad and don't even want to see any people in my life, I always ask God to take away my life. I know this is scary. But, yea.. I did say all those. But, I'm still here today. Haha.. That song really got me into a deep thinking. Why am I so sad over earthly things? The main reason that I live here is to perform my duty as God's child. He died on the cross to pay the price for my life and no one can ever do that for me even if that person loves me very much. Yes! How can we ever survive without God? Even those that don't believe in Him, they are enjoying His love without they themselves even know it. It's because of Him that I'm here today. It's because of him that I'm set free. That 'pre-chorus' really got my hands lifted up. The thing that was in my mind at that time was - I won't care everything that happens and right now, I JUST WANT to worship God. His love for us is really wonderful. Even if no one loves us anymore, no one cares for us anymore, no one wants us anymore, God will DEFINITELY be there for us.

Lord You are always here with me
When the trouble comes
I trust in You
For I know You will lead me through
And I know You are faithful
Till the end

[Verse 2]
And when the storms are drawing near
When I’m with You
I don’t have to fear
You’re my shepherd on whom I can depend

[Pre-chorus]
Through the day
Through the night
I know You’re always by my side

[Chorus]
Lord You are always here with me
There is no changing God in thee
You are the same yesterday
And today and forevermore
Here on Your promises I stand
You hold my future in Your hand
My Solid Rock, Almighty God
I worship You

*As everyone knows, I'm standing on this junction that has two roads. I'm supposed to choose where to go after SPM - RBS or GLO Training School. Yup! And I'm stuck now! Can this be considered trouble? Anyway, there are still many troubles in my life apart from that. Some of them have been my trouble for a period of time. And, all these while, I know that I should trust in God and He will take care of everything. And I am trusting in Him for some troubles, not all. Don't ask me why. I just can't commit everything though I want to. Just can't do it at times. When this song was sung, I was like, "Hey.. Are You talking to me? I know I should trust You. I know You will lead me through and I also know that You are faithful till the end. But.. but.." I'm speechless thinking of my "but". Then the impact of the verse 2 was even greater. Storm that are drawing near, I won't fear. "It's storm you know! STORM!!! Don't play play ok!" When I think of my life, it's really true you know. Whenever I'm in trouble, trials, and whatever it is, He's the one who is always there. Even if He didn't say anything, He's just there. I can sense His presence with me, comforting me. I'm really thankful for it. Am really really thankful.

Well, overall.. that's it. Thank you Yew Weng for the wonderful worship. Ah Qi, keep up the good work. I was really glad when I see you singing up there with such gusto. All the musicians, wonderful music. You guys enhanced the worship. To the people who sang, great singing. I really enjoyed the night worship.

背叛－曹格

Though it's considered an old song, I suddenly like this song a lot. It's very meaningful.

Broadway Parodies Lagi-Lah!

It's superb okay!!! No wonder it's in great demand. And so they named it "lagi". Someone that I remember till now - the lady whom I called the hot grandma. She is so cool...! Haha.. Another one would be the lady who sang for the "Phantom of the Opera". Her singing is so darn "hebat"! She sang all those high notes like nothing. It looked as though there wasn't any effort and she reaches thath note just .. like that! Fantastic! Another one would be a guy - the fat fat uncle. He is soooo... cute! Hehe.. The part where he acted as the Indian lady. I could see that everybody was so engrossed in his act. Haha.. And of course everybody else did well too. *thumbs up*

I DID NOT regret for going. In fact, I would say that it's a waste for those who did not go. It really reflects the practices of Malaysians. I would always remember this. Malaysia's national sport - EATING!!! Yes!!! Look at my previous posts. FOOD!!! Yes, food!!! Next one would be the Malaysians' hobby - SHOPPING!!! Indeed it's another correct one. Maybe it doesn't apply to most of the guys, but trust me, there are guys who ADORE shopping more than girls. I admit that I do like shopping. However, no vitamin M how to go for shopping? Hello..?? But, it's still enjoying even if it's window shopping. No money needed! Woohoo!!!

Anyway, I just want to say that it's really an opportunity to be there. And I appreciate that. Thanks to the organiser and the performers. I really had a great time laughing and thinking the acts of Malaysians. Well done!!!

Lastly, I would like to say - SUPPORT PERFORMING ARTS!!!

A little bit of updates

I've got most of my results for my trials. And, overall.. I'm still okay with the results. Not to say that I'm very happy with it. But, at the same time, I'm not very sad. Confusing...! Anyway, I'm starting to work for my SPM. Please pray for me. =)

Apart from that, I'm currently still thinking over whether I should go for RBS or GLO Training. I'm still like the persona in the poem "The road not taken".

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And I looked down one as fas as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth

*Tonight's plan - Going for "Broadway Parodies Lagi Lah!"

Power of prayer

Wan Li was sharing about prayer this evening in caregroup. It really boosted me up! I agreed with what Wan Li said. Persistence is the key.

And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

~ Luke 11:9-10~

There were examples in my life that I prayed for. There was one where it caused me to loose a very good friend. Although I lost friendship and I'm disappointed about it, life still need to go on, right? Another one was something to do with siblings. Eversince I was young, I always longed for younger sister or brother (just like how my brother wanted a younger brother). I always begged my mum to give me a younger brother or sister. But, mum always gave me excuses. Then, my one of my piano teachers told me that she had a friend who prayed for younger sibling for years and she got one when she was in her teenage years (something like that.. but she got one.. that's for sure!). So, she said if I really wanted one, I should pray hard. And of course I prayed! But, I didn't get any. So, I thought, maybe I wasn't earnest enough. But, there was once where I shared with some people regarding this matter. So, they told me that God answered my prayer by giving me 4 sisters!!! Not one, but FOUR!!! Yes!!! I'm really blessed to have them in my life. Really!!! Though we sometimes have some arguments or disagreements, we are still sisters. After having them, I have more "younger siblings". I have brothers as well. Haha.. God really answered my prayer after all.

Now, I've been praying for something for quite some time. And, I'm waiting for the Lord's answer. :) Another prayer item will be my plans after SPM. There's this RBS and GLO training after my SPM. And I'm supposed to choose one. So, I'm still thinking through which to go. Do pray for me. Maybe you can tell me your experience and share them. I'll appreciate that alot. But, the most important thing is what the Lord wants for me.

FOOD again..

Raya for Malays, makan for non-Malays. Yes! Today was another makan day for me. My uncle came to Ipoh and we had dinner together. It was a scrumptious meal!!! 9 dishes, including 2 noodles, for the 15 of us!!! Oh my goodness!!! And me, the one who can hardly resist when it comes to food but scared to gain weight, gave in to tempations once again. Dinner was at Restoran Qi Jia Fa at Lawan Kuda, Gopeng. Yes, these gourmets went all the way to Gopeng just to have a taste of the famous pig trotter.

~egg ordered for my cousin brother~

~first noodles (second noodles forgot to take picture but it tastes better than the first one)~

~Don't know what fried chicken is this~

~Sweet sour steamed Talapia fish~

~shu miu (young sweet potatoes leaves)~
~Pig trotter (super delicious!!)~
~hot plate Japanese taufu~
~fresh scalop brocoli (the most expensive dish)~~my cousin enjoying the food~
~a baby my dad spotted in the restaurant~