Sunday, August 31, 2008

SPM trial

SPM is just around the corner. Sigh.. I haven't finish revising a single subject. Gosh! I can say that English is the only subject I'm prepared (cause I never study English for my exams as tuition and school work are sufficient). I'm taking 12 subjects for my SPM.

  • Bahasa Malaysia
  • English
  • Chinese
  • Additional Maths
  • Modern Maths
  • Chemistry
  • Physics
  • Biology
  • Pendidikan Moral
  • Sejarah
  • EST
  • Bible Knowledge

We'll see what the results are soon. Trust in the Lord and He will take care of the rest. But, I will still need to do my part by studying which I will try. =) Please pray for me. Trial will be on the 8th to 25th September. I might be missing in action during this period of time unless I can't resist the blogging fever. =P

Friday, August 22, 2008

Sunday, August 17, 2008

An email I received...

Dear Friends,
Trust you are well and that you all will continue to 'slay the giants' in life. With God all things are possible. Let us press through and not give us. There will always be storm in life but let us fix our eyes on the author and finisher of our faith.
Here is a story to remind you not to quit. It is creation theology. You are His masterpiece and He is not finished with us and we shall one day arrived. Don't give up..... One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
'God', I asked. 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'
His answer surprised me...
'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.
'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit. Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle. Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. Don't compare yourself to others. The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful. Your time will come. You will rise high.'
How high should I rise?' I asked.
'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return.
'As high as it can?' I questioned.
'Yes,' He said.
'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity. Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

Friday, August 15, 2008

Graduation dinner - Dreams of Tomorrow

Today can be said to be a long awaited day..? For some people. For me, it's kind of "grand" in a sense that we don't have to dress like what we dress in school normally (we get to wear skirt to school!!!), we have food (not cooked in the canteen), scream and don't have to care whether it's "memalukan" (cause it's OUR NIGHT!!), and the most important thing is NOT GETTING SCOLDED BY OUR TEACHER!!! If not, at least it's grand for being MY graduation dinner. Once in a lifetime okay!? But, really have a sense of regret for not dressing GRANDLY. How grand is grand then? Well, dressing like going for wedding dinners is grand to me. Anyway, it was still okay (though it was a little messy here and there). Still a good effort!!! Especially my 5S6 classmates!!! 3-in-1 dance!!! LOVE IT!!! Latin + modern jazz + ballet. Great one girls!!! Though I wasn't there to dance with you girls, but you girls rock!!! Not everybody can do it okay!? First time seeing our class being so united. So proud of you!!! As for me, I was just sitting there watching, taking photos, screaming, eating, and etc. Food still can "tahan". But, didn't really eat much. So, we "da bao" back. Thought of keeping it for my brother. But, my parents finished them up. Sorry bro! :P Here are some photos.
~Before~
~After~
~Me in front of the hall~

~Me and my leng leng Pn Tan~

~ My funny, strict, scary, caring, etc. form teacher Miss Heong and me~

~My best Physics teacher Miss Wong and me~

~My leng leng PJ teacher, Pn Chong and me~

~Pig bro Clarence and me~

~Me and my Andrew bro~

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Too many stupidity in my life

So many things happened lately. And it all made me so speechless. I just don't know what response I should give. It just dawned on me that I'm just a small, tiny, little girl on earth (what awful adjectives are those). And, everything I did all these while was just so.. stupid (or foolish or whatever you call it..) Things that happened lately are just so... I don't know how to say it. I'm just so tired. Feel like taking... not just a day off.. but weeks or months or years or... Haiz.. This verse kind of stuck to me for quite some time and gave me strength to persevere in everything that I do.

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endure through every circumstance. - 1 Corinthians 4:7 -
*But, is this still working?

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

CONGRATULATIONS... AND CELEBRATION

NS list is out!!! And I'm not in!!! Gosh!! What a GREAT and WONDERFUL news!!! Haha.. Anyway, to check whether you're selected anot, just SMS "NS [space] your IC Number" and send to 33995. That's all!!!

CONGRATULATIONS AND CELEBRATION...
la..la..la..la..la..

*sad* @ 9:33pm.
Got a news that the list I checked just now was just the first one. The second one will be out next week. Oh Lord.. Please.. protect me from NS.. sob..

Monday, August 11, 2008

A different side of me..?? Or is it the same..?



These photos were taken last year while I joined AMC Idol last year. Gosh! That was the very first time I had a hair-do. Thanks to my "hairdresser" , Fiona (the one standing beside me) and Swee Anne for her gadget to set my hair. Hehe.. It was fun because I never expect such things for my competition. I didn't want to take part in the first place cause I lost for the previous year's AMC Idol. I didn't want to disappoint those who were supporting me. But, my classmates encouraged me to do it. So, I did it! And I got 5th I think. Well, I didn't care about the results actually. I didn't even practise. Anyway, it was really fun! =)

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

10 steps to be a PROFESSIONAL teacher

It made me so mad that I can't take my nap. I kept thinking that I should blog about it right away!
10 steps to be a PROFESSIONAL teacher? =P
  • Disallows students to phone home when the student is unwell
  • Scolds students for doing their own work when she's not teaching
  • Eats sweets in class
  • Plays handphone in class when the student is presenting in front
  • Blames students for faults that they did not do (can even cry in front of other teachers - fantastic!)
  • Hates the class even before she starts teaching them
  • Keep on commenting the class in front of other teachers (behind the class's back) [in other words back-stabbing]
  • Grumbles for having to teach type of students that she dislikes
  • Doubts the work of students, thinking that students simply do her work
  • Can only think of the students' negative side (for everything that the students practise is negative - not even a single positive thing in them)

Due to the encounters I had in school for the past few years, those are the conclusions I made. I've always wanted to be a teacher ever since I was young. However, as time goes by, I really felt that I'm actually having an ambition that is... (don't know how to describe). I used to think that being a teacher is a very noble thing. Now, I guess I will have to change my mind. I remembered during my life in the primary school, I'm always discouraged from being a teacher (especially form my teachers of course!). But, my parents supported me. That is why my dad "insisted" on me to pursue my studies as a teacher (which I don't wish to at the moment). When I enter into secondary school, things started to change. I have teachers telling me that being a teacher is a smart choice. Look at them (they said)! Yes.. They're well paid, happy in a sense that it's only half-day work, etc. I was rather encouraged actually. I have even teachers advising me on which route to go. Thanks to Pn Tan and Miss Teh! Now, I must really think thrice! The longer the time I'm in secondary school, the less my interest in teaching. This is the relationship between the time and the interest in teaching (too much Physics). IT really kills my interest seeing the way teachers are nowadays. No doubt, there are good still teachers out there. But, the good ones are only minority. Sigh...! A big big SIGH..! This is such a sad news. Anyway, things might change my mind again (for example: God's plan for me). At the moment, I'm aiming to study early childhood education or psychology (ONLY). No one knows whether I can study what I want. Only God knows...

*I'm so glad that I'm leaving AMC soon for I don't have to be involved in unnecessary school politics, "swallow" unnecessary blames, suffer from unnecessary scoldings and much much more unnecessaries... BUT, one thing for sure - I'll definitely miss all my friends and all the teachers who have taught me (no matter they're good or bad)!

Good: for giving me good memories

Bad: for giving me nightmares

Monday, August 04, 2008

Huh?

What's going on with me?
My mood goes up and down like a roller coaster
Laughing like crazy, and
In another second
Sad as though at the lowest point of my life

What's going on with me?
Talking like a chatterbox, and
Suddenly
My mouth is sealed
As tight as if my mouth is applied with UHU glue

What's going on with me?
Feeling that what I do is worthwhile, and
All of a sudden
Feeling that I'm actually cheating myself

What's going on with me?
Encouraging people with such spirit, but
Actually
I myself don't know what I'm talking

What's going on with me?
Think about others as if it's my business
Talk to others as if it's my problem
Console others as if it's my job
But in actual fact
It's none of my business

Sunday, August 03, 2008

My weekend

Due to some reasons, many of my relatives came back this weekend. My eldest aunt came back with her family which includes my cousin sister who was pursuing her studies in UK. The biggest surprise was the presence of my cousin brother. Nobody knew that he was coming back (from UK). My third uncle also came back with his family. Three of my cousin sisters were here as well. Big sacrifice to come back from weekend from Kuantan! Such a longggggggggggg journey. Not to mention my third aunt as well. She's always here for weekend (cause she stays in Ipoh! lol). During this weekend, my youngest cousin from Kuantan and my youngest cousin in Ipoh were given a name (by me!) - "tong chi dao" (which means two person who stick together everytime). Anyway, we had a good time of fellowship together, especially with my cousins from UK of course! Haven't seen them for years! Here are some photos of them:

~My cousin sister, Phoebe and me!~


~My botak, funny, cute, etc. cousin brother, Johann~

Friday, August 01, 2008

Choir Farewell

How time flies! It's 1st of August and it's our farewell. Haiz.. Though sometimes I feel like leaving choir faster, today is really making me "berat hati" to leave choir.


Initially, we planned to go OUT of AMC to have our farewell. Who knows! This popped up and that popped up. In the end, we ended up with farewell in school PLUS konon punya homecook food. But, it was really fun. Seriously!! Though we all wanted to go out, it's really the fun that matters. We started off with food but was taken aback when Shireen said that the Form 3 will take the food first. We (as in the Form 5) were like! Eh! You caused us to wait from 1.05pm to 2pm and now you serve them first and not the "yang berbahagia"!!!??? How dare you!? Hunger gripped us and we couldn't really tolerate anymore. Shireen told us, "The best is yet to come." We told here what more was best!? It was really "best"! We were SERVED!!! Food brought to our presence!!! Haha.. Good one!!! We then proceed to some games. We really saw how the head prefect and the deputy head prefect being crazy in choir meetings. The stern looks were all gone! They really made us laugh off our heads!!! We danced and laughed almost all the way. Then, Ji Ching requested to sing our songs again. That was the emo part. Singing was fine. But, that SHIREEN CHOW talked so many things. For example, "Remember this song? We used this to beat xxx! The memories......" Wah liao eh! Why you bring us back to the memories? Yes, we did a lot of things together - shed tears of joy, scolded by teacher, sharing secrets, fought back xxx when necessary, etc. Really, these were what we did back in all the meetings we had. Though it might be some sadness here and there, I still want to thank everyone in the choir. Thank you to the committee as well for organizing this farewell party for us. We know that you girls worked hard. Thanks for the souvenir as well. Love it! Do take care of yourselves and continue to strive for the best next year. Make them better and win the national title!!! Take care girls!!!

You raised me up

So I can stand on mountains

You raised me up

To walk on stormy seas

Lalu kuredah onak duri dan lautan api

Kemuncaknya ingin kutawan

Aku jelajahi