3 years have passed

I can't really believe it that I'm already here for 3 years. God has definitely showed His blessings to me throughout the past 3 years here in Perlis. It's so amazing and without Him, I will not be writing all these. He has sent so many angels to be in my life. I can't thank Him more!

Geok Cher.. My da jie and bestie! Thank you for everything!!! Apart from thank you, I don't know what else to say. You've always been there through my tears (joy and sadness). My tears just feel more toe express themselves every time they see you (i don't know why) :P  

Tin-ya.. Thank you for enduring with me for all the tantrums I have shown.

Izati.. Thank you for being so patient with me all the time. Crazy time!  Play time!

Yana! I know you love me more! <3 

Buddy.. Ups and downs throughout the 3 years. Thank you for all the memories, advice, pamper, etc.

 Words cannot describe how thankful I am for having you guys in my life. Thank you for being by my side and sharing my joy and sadness together. I know I have done things that have and will make you angry and all, I'm really sorry. I treasure every moment and every memory that you guys have given to me. You guys make a BIG part of my life here. Let's enjoy the remaining 2 and half years here! Love you guys!!! XOXOXOXO

A SUPER random thought

If today is my last day

I wonder what are people's first reaction when they know that I'm no longer around
I wonder what people will write on my Facebook wall
I wonder what people will say in my funeral
I wonder whether people will think that I was a blessing or otherwise
I wonder whether people will feel happy that I left
I wonder whether people will cry
I wonder whether people will laugh
I wonder whether people will cheer

If today is my last day...

From the bottom of my heart

Actually I know something has happened
Actually I sense the difference
Actually I know I'm not thinking too much
Actually I'm disappointed because of it

But I know there's nothing that I can do
Perhaps I'm just not her

It's my mistake

I thought you were different
But you turned out to be just like the rest

I thought things have changed for the better
But it turned out to be the opposite

Yeaaaaa
I thought many things
But thoughts are JUST thoughts
They will never be a reality

*Is this pre-exam emotion disorder or what?

I KNOW

I know I am a failure
I know I don't have as many friends as YOU
I know I am not as sociable as YOU
I know I am not up to YOUR expectation
I know I am a nobody

All I want to say.. YOU don't have to make me feel more terrible about myself with the things YOU do

I know I'm not perfect and nobody is.