From the bottom of my heart

Actually I know something has happened
Actually I sense the difference
Actually I know I'm not thinking too much
Actually I'm disappointed because of it

But I know there's nothing that I can do
Perhaps I'm just not her

It's my mistake

I thought you were different
But you turned out to be just like the rest

I thought things have changed for the better
But it turned out to be the opposite

Yeaaaaa
I thought many things
But thoughts are JUST thoughts
They will never be a reality

*Is this pre-exam emotion disorder or what?

I KNOW

I know I am a failure
I know I don't have as many friends as YOU
I know I am not as sociable as YOU
I know I am not up to YOUR expectation
I know I am a nobody

All I want to say.. YOU don't have to make me feel more terrible about myself with the things YOU do

I know I'm not perfect and nobody is.

加油吧！

身为你的朋友。。

我不会怪你。。

我不会强迫你。。

我会默默地支持你。。

我会陪你走过这一段路。。

你不需要理我。。

也不需要刻意为我做些什么。。

只要你开心就好。。

友谊不是轻易可以得到的。。

友谊是需要经过磨炼的。。

友谊是需要付出的。。

我等。。

When emotions get the most of me..

我又沒有很想你，
我只是在早上醒來的時候，看看手機，有沒有你發來的信息，有沒有你的未接來電。
我又沒有很想你，
我只是在開電腦的時候，第一個跑去你的SPACE踩踩，看看你今天是不是有更新。
我又沒有很想你，
我只是在聊天的時候，打開你的對話框，看著你的頭像，或者
重溫一下以前的記錄。
我又沒有很想你，
我只是把你的來電調成唯一的鈴音，放在我身邊，並時不時的看看是否自動關機，是否信號良好。
我又沒有很想你，
我只是在和朋友的聊天中，不厭其煩的提起你，講那些也許他們都早已爛熟於心的事情。

Many people enter my life. We get to know each other and we become close. When friendship starts to build and I thought it will remain strong, they walk out of my life. This is when it hurts a lot. After much crying, the scar is formed. And the cycle goes over and over again. Things get worse when I can't even shed tears. Things get even worse when there is actually no more space left to form another scar but the scar still forms.

I have to learn how to be more independent. I've said these so many times and yet I don't learn my lessons. Why oh why???

**SLAP MYSELF** WAKE UP!!!